I give up! lol

I have the hardest time keeping my weight up to where it's supposed to be at 139. I have gone down to 137 twice, and rarely am above 138. To keep my weight up, I've eaten walnuts, which helped but then they disappeared, I've eaten a little banana bread (which did nothing) drank a smoothie with a banana - nothing. I hate a handful of corn chips. Nothing. Not even half a pound. I go to bed every night at 138.5 or so, and by morning I'm between 137 and 138. I realize that I only have to stay within 2 pounds of my ending weight, but I'm tired of worrying about it.

So, I'm going to continue weighing myself in the morning, and before every meal. Based on that weight I will decide what and how much to eat. For instance, today I had friends over, and we made a big pot of mac 'n' cheese for everyone. I went and weighed myself, and was hovering between 138 and 138.5. So I had about half a cup of mac 'n' cheese, and a nice size salad with ham. By dinner I was 138.5. So I feel like I made a good choice. I ate food that I enjoyed, but paid close attention to the portion, as well as making sure to get in some really healthy food in the process. I'm going to stop worrying about carbs, and sugars, except to make sure I'm not having something to eat that is pure sugar. An occasional cookie would be nice, but I won't be sitting there pigging out on an entire batch. I like mac 'n' cheese, but I won't be eating the entire box anymore (even if it IS my favorite spirals! lol) and I'm going to make sure I get plenty of fruit and vegetables. I am still not having very much dairy - no more than about a cup of milk a day, and possibly some shredded cheese in my salads. I'm getting lots of protein in hard boiled eggs, and steak, with a little chicken every now and then. A well balanced diet is key. And I will adjust my quantities based on what my weight is before my meal.

You know what this means, right? I can eat worry free at Thanksgiving, as long as I pay attention to portion sizes and variety. YAY!