Day 4

Today has been harder for me mentally than yesterday. The reason? I went and helped out with an advertising event for my horse rescue. The event was at the Camp Corey Octoberfest. They had a food booth there, with all sorts of yummy stuff, like grilled cheese and pumpkin pancakes (YUM!!!!!) Of course the other girls were eating those while I grumbled to myself about choosing the wrong time of year to start a very restrictive diet. However, thinking about that got me thinking about Thanksgiving at the end of next month, when I should be at the tail end of my maintenance phase, meaning that I can go ahead and have some small servings of starches and carbs (potatoes and rolls), and how much weight I will have lost at that point, and how I'll be in a smaller size, and be so skinny. That just strengthened my resolve to stick to my diet.

Then, of course, I came home to find a plate of my FAVORITE mac 'n' cheese (spirals... I don't know why, but they just taste better) that Jim had made for the kids in my absence, and extra in the pot on the stove, and I thought just how easy it would be for me to just eat 2 noodles. I CAN'T!! I WILL NOT BE SWAYED!!! See how strong I am? lol I am really optomistic about my diet. One thing I will be changing in the future though is this: Every morning I'm going to make a big pot of tea to take with me throughout the day if I know I might have to leave. I will still be drinking half my weight in ounces of water on top of that, but the tea kills some of the more severe hunger issues. Yes, I did have some hunger issues today, but I think it may have been more mental than physical. I was seeing people eat all this yummy food, was smelling it, and my body wanted it. Once everyone had eaten, and the smells and sights were gone, I wasn't hungry anymore. By the time I got home I was getting a few grumbles from my tummy, but since it wasn't time to eat yet, I drank some tea, and now I feel fine. I sure am glad for those 2 drops of stevia, because green tea by itself is sure bitter.

So - meals.

Breakfast - 2 cups of tea
Lunch - steak strips, a handful of cut up strawberries, a handful of raw spinach (so glad I discovered that I like raw spinach, because it sure is good for you, and tasty too!), and a breadstick
Dinner (haven't eaten it yet) - same chicken/onion mix as yesterday and an orange.

I've been drinking lots of water, and now that I'm home I'm going to add some tea in as well :)